Wednesday, July 23, 2008

New Cars Are Normal Goods

A teddy bear ...

Have you ever had a small teddy bear to sleep with, or any animal plush?
Apprentice insignificant, but for you, we, the importance was enormous ..
Waking up embracing something to pass on his love, affection, fear, even, ... helped to face the day in a better way ..
The other night I dreamed such a thing in my dream I woke up clutching the arms something that was not a bear, but the feeling was that, affection, tenderness, something to cherish, watch remaining in his sleep, waking up to protect her, make out his features in an infinite sweetness .... See
eyes open slowly and think that the first thing you will see, your eyes captured by the sweetness ..........
Driiiinnnnnn .... The damn alarm clock ... and it all ends there, the paranoia of living things do not really try only imaginary when emotions would take very little ......
I really need a teddy bear to live "rather than physical, I'd be happy to hold her and touch her neck, slightly to not wake him, count the number of breaths in a minute ago and multiply over time, just to make you feel the beat heart, slow down or speed up my to sync ....
occasions I might even have the physical, but without this I would try not value ... perhaps too much sweetness, but there are those who put eight bags in a cup of coffee, so why should I drink bitter??

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Coloul Shed Of Berger Paints

A letter ...

I wrote a letter, exactly one week ago, addressed to a person to whom I will only read between 1 month and a half, when I am sure you do not see it .....
Why this??
because if you show me now I would not do anything but mess up the situation already very busy, another reason why it could not happen to need to deliver it, the unexpected turn events take, do not do figures shit and other things.
A little pride not to show feelings, thoughts in people who may appear different from how I now look and ..... another reason, the most important, it's worth it?? Actually I forgot one and a half of paranoia for a woman ?????
Maybe not ..... I have not forgotten .......
E 'was enough to cap a hug stolen understand the emotion that might still exist somewhere, perhaps this is yet another attempt to escape the stronghold of my mind to other things. Nail Nail
crushes, so it is said, one thing that I do not approve, but will instead, I have unconsciously put this defense??
The question I have, I admit, but when close to a person and feel the desire to constantly hold her I do not understand exactly what is the best nail, what excites me more .....
a mess, as usual, one thing I have to attend to yourself, do not drag other people in my confusion ...... hopefully understand my guardian angel that I do not want to exclude it from my thoughts, I know it seems to want to remove people who love me when I most need it, but it is a subconscious reaction, since little I was always taught to fend for himself and my problems were mine and I had to solve them alone .... why I struggle to ask for help to the end .... I have to do alone ......
And the letter?? who knows, I may cancel and do not ever write it .......

Monday, July 7, 2008

Where Is Evian Water From

Angel or devil? who to listen to?

Listen to reason and try to hide, to continue to pretend not to have any interest, or listen to the party seeking to act, against all rational logic?
have something inside and not leave it out is making me burst your brain, I feel a real physical need to get rid of this .... as something that tries to get out from the center of my chest, a rivelazioe, an external one that is there for leave a thin film stops him, ever more thin, almost transparent, now an evidence that maybe I will not need to say anything ver, it is clear ...
But then what would happen, the angel holding me, saying, to use the brain more than other times, this time would be too large, more than any other ...
the other hand, the worst or the best ... .. depending on your point of view ... I say, go, talk that goes ..... ill send you to hell, you will ensure, through indifference, coldness, but what could make you more of this ..... I'm at limit the decision I should take, who will win?
Sometimes the devil is so strong that it is the master, start the conversation, take it away, but with the goal in mind and in front of me, but then like tonight, I avoid, I show indifference, the opposite of what I feel ...... and I wonder again, but I who the hell am I doing here?? six ridiculous, out of place, out of time ..... I am convinced, for a while, until the devil you do not do this again, thanks to its easy prey ...
not I can do it, I'm gonna take a shit, I know, pretty big .....
hope that tomorrow when you wake up the sleeping devil and the angel wins ,......
I can not do what I'm thinkin ', I know .... but ............

Thursday, July 3, 2008

What Information Should Be Given In Poster?

From the frying pan into the ...... Planet

Happy to have overcome seemingly a time and be released from the pan, Pluff, on the grill ....... ......
will try things to me so dificult, impossible??
But this time I really think you have gone too far.
The thing that happens to me now is to feel alone in the middle of the casino people, when they lack a presence ...
I have to go out and I do not want, I have read and I do not want, I do many things and I do not want to do anything ...
Apathy is the host, along with the melancholy thought that I had left ..
year zero lasted very little, no, it seems worse than the previous ones .. Hard
always show the smiling face ..... for now she can, but someone more attentive observer will notice sooner or later .... Let's hope not ..
course is that they are really persistent, but this time I have not noticed, it happened suddenly, I could not create barriers sufficient to protect me .... did not want to experience new sensations and feelings strong enough to hurt me, I just wanted to fuck and that's it, spend three months in joy and companionship, but bad luck around the corner, waiting for me and this time the test is harder than any other I can not ...... escape, avoid ...
I did not even sin of laziness and cowardice, something I did, no results found ... if you do not have the sadness of a massively increase time ...... No time to
scirvere year zero and are now back to normal, even worse ... In most casinos in my mind I hurt someone I care very much, a friend of the real ones that I definitely think that now is hopeless ....
A friend to whom I owe a lot, serenity, a positive thought for every message, a smile when reading his letters, in communicating with her .... Knowing that he thought of me, that he wanted to let me know.
Then with my paranoia has happened that maybe this year I have been shown to anon have understood nothing, but it is not, I have moments of confusion, I should not have, but so are perhaps afraid that someone is bad for me, as I have been so many times ....
Who knows if it is altruism or selfishness ... Getting to a point and then stop abruptly, as if I had not yet understand nothing of who stands before me?
In this situation most of shit ........ can not get away this time .... I hope These two and a half months remaining in escaping the hustle and not leave me anything, I hope ....
Now in thinking that she might not consider me a chill as before in spite of this infernal heat ........ ....