Happy to have overcome seemingly a time and be released from the pan, Pluff, on the grill ....... ......
will try things to me so dificult, impossible??
But this time I really think you have gone too far.
The thing that happens to me now is to feel alone in the middle of the casino people, when they lack a presence ...
I have to go out and I do not want, I have read and I do not want, I do many things and I do not want to do anything ...
Apathy is the host, along with the melancholy thought that I had left ..
year zero lasted very little, no, it seems worse than the previous ones .. Hard
always show the smiling face ..... for now she can, but someone more attentive observer will notice sooner or later .... Let's hope not ..
course is that they are really persistent, but this time I have not noticed, it happened suddenly, I could not create barriers sufficient to protect me .... did not want to experience new sensations and feelings strong enough to hurt me, I just wanted to fuck and that's it, spend three months in joy and companionship, but bad luck around the corner, waiting for me and this time the test is harder than any other I can not ...... escape, avoid ...
I did not even sin of laziness and cowardice, something I did, no results found ... if you do not have the sadness of a massively increase time ...... No time to
scirvere year zero and are now back to normal, even worse ... In most casinos in my mind I hurt someone I care very much, a friend of the real ones that I definitely think that now is hopeless ....
A friend to whom I owe a lot, serenity, a positive thought for every message, a smile when reading his letters, in communicating with her .... Knowing that he thought of me, that he wanted to let me know.
Then with my paranoia has happened that maybe this year I have been shown to anon have understood nothing, but it is not, I have moments of confusion, I should not have, but so are perhaps afraid that someone is bad for me, as I have been so many times ....
Who knows if it is altruism or selfishness ... Getting to a point and then stop abruptly, as if I had not yet understand nothing of who stands before me?
In this situation most of shit ........ can not get away this time .... I hope These two and a half months remaining in escaping the hustle and not leave me anything, I hope ....
Now in thinking that she might not consider me a chill as before in spite of this infernal heat ........ ....
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